Maybe.

Maybe, just maybe...

It's morning here so good morning everyone!

I just woke up from a dream... once again it involves he who shall not be named. I'm so disappointed in myself. At least this time it doesn't involve us being a couple. It was just the three of us, at my house (like what) just chilling, hanging out. It did involve us like going on a flirt mode at some point. Then I woke up...

I came up with a conclusion. If I don't talk or even think about this person, I actually won't dream about him. I mean I haven't been dreaming about anyone for days now. Therefore, I might as well just completely forget about him to prevent from this happening again right?

Yes... I think I will do that. For the sake of my heart...

I'll quote this as it is relevant to how I feel.

“I think you still love me, but we can’t escape the fact that I’m not enough for you. I knew this was going to happen. So I’m not blaming you for falling in love with another woman. I’m not angry, either. I should be, but I’m not. I just feel pain. A lot of pain. I thought I could imagine how much this would hurt, but I was wrong.” ― Haruki Murakami, South of the Border, West of the Sun

Nope, I am definitely not blaming you for falling in love with another woman. I'm definitely not angry. It's just the pain I feel....

Yours truly,
F.