Friendship.

Everyone experiences friendship in their life. Even though as you grow older, some stays some goes especially when you reach the stage where you leave high school, get into a university of your choice and you just get separated with friends you make during your school life. It's just a matter of choice whether you want to keep in touch or lost in touch. In my case, I pretty much lost in touch with almost all my friends in high school. We all suddenly just became acquaintance. Maybe also because I didn't make much effort to keep in touch with them because of personal reasons.

I personally think university is where you know whether the friendships you make are going to stay or leave you and alhamdulillah mine are still here by my side.

My foundation year made me become good friends with bunch of people and we're still close till today even when two of them are studying abroad and another one doing a different degree course. We still try to keep in touch together and not breaking the friendship knot. I always go to them when I have problems and they would help me or sometimes slap me to some senses. They are always the first one to know everything about my relationship and my other personal problems. But sometimes I don't really go to them for relationship problems because they don't really know him very well so I go to someone else instead, someone that knows him well enough like I do.

But other times, I just go on my social media or my diary and rant there because sometimes I feel like telling them everything just won't help so instead I keep to myself and rant out somewhere. There are limits when it comes to telling people your problems.

Unfortunately, out of all the friends you make, there's always a few of them that would either envy you or basically dislike you. You either ignore and just continue being friends with them or completely ignore and leave them be. I personally experience it a few times already and of course I don't like it but even when I try to work things out with them, they just continue to make things worst so in conclusion, I just leave them alone.

In the end being alone is still the best. The joy of being alone is still something I enjoy doing.

F.

Distraction.

I still have that overly attached girlfriend inside me. Therefore, I miss him already even though we just saw each other yesterday. I know.... it's silly.... but that feeling disappeared when I occupied myself by doing something. After months of not cleaning my room, I finally got to do it today. On top of that! I managed to rearrange my furniture in my small room. Though I couldn't do much but it is still something. It will stay like this until I feel like rearranging it. Day well spent I must say.

Eid is tomorrow and I am ready to celebrate it with open arms. Though I'm gonna miss Ramadan. It's been a lovely 1 month of holiness and trying to get closer to Allah. I still feel like I didn't do much to get closer to Him but I think I did enough. InsyaAllah I'll be able to experience Ramadan again next year. 

I'll be blogging again now that I'm free but not a daily thing. It's going to be a weekly thing.

What was I talking about again.......

Distraction.

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Luck and Time.

I told myself, "Don't chase after him anymore. Try playing hard to get." Surprisingly, it worked. I kept myself calm and cool, pretended the past we had never happened, playing the best friend role until one of us start it first...

The rest is history, they said.

In conclusion, everything is going so well. Alhamdulillah~

F.

You can't just think you know the person well by just reading her blog posts. That's not the right way to get to know a person. You think you know me but you actually don't....

I love him...

I've come to the decision where this is it.
He's the one I'm gonna marry.
I see the future when I'm with him.

No more one sided feelings.
No more worries.
No more doubts.
No more obstacles.
Just us, world and after life.

F.