Good night?
I was telling myself, I would write a post each day at night because well that's when your day finishes right? So yeah..... here I go.
I actually had this urge to write what was happening to my thoughts last night. I regretted making the decision to stalk he who shall not be named. I saw that one post where I felt like my hard work was just in vain. It's so unfair he got to move on so fast and I'm here still stuck hoping that he would come back. How dumb can I be? So I quickly close the tab and just forget that it never happened by doing something that would make me forget what happened 5 minutes ago, by watching Shameless. I almost made the decision to ask you who shall not be named if it was true. I told myself "NO! THAT'S ENOUGH! YOU ALREADY TROUBLED THEM. NO MORE!". Then, I quickly watched my show to calm me down and alhamdulillah, it did...
You will be missed...
Today,
I decided on changing my way of living. It was when I remembered the horrific incident and started remembering why I decided to take this path of youth. It hit me at the back of my head.. I chose this path to go back to the Almighty. Giving up my life to Him, and only Him. The first thing I did was to cover myself up. I succeed in doing it. I already had that intention to cover myself up for a long time, but my mother told me "Do it when you're truly ready." Therefore, I waited until I was fully ready. When that incident happened, I realized this was a sign from Him. He wanted me to realize what I've been doing wrong. I took the vow to cover myself up from now on. I felt even more fresher ever since I started doing it. I know, I'm still doing things wrongly, sins that could bring me to Hell. I always regret every single sins I did. Praying to Allah that he would forgive me as He is forgiving and loving. Every human being can make mistake and they'll be forgiven if they repent on their sins in hope He will forgive you. I decided to start reading the Holy Quran after every 5 prayers. You will always feel your heart feels fresher after you read the Holy Quran. It truly is...
I won't be sad over something so little, "the one" who I always hoped for all my life, crying over all these boys, trying to fit it in the society. No more! I had enough! I'm going to start focusing on my education and future. I am a grown woman now, I should start thinking about tomorrow and future. When He shows you the right one, only then you can work hard on that.
Thinking of ways to handle your life properly with a smile on your face.
Quote:
Yours truly,
F.
I was telling myself, I would write a post each day at night because well that's when your day finishes right? So yeah..... here I go.
I actually had this urge to write what was happening to my thoughts last night. I regretted making the decision to stalk he who shall not be named. I saw that one post where I felt like my hard work was just in vain. It's so unfair he got to move on so fast and I'm here still stuck hoping that he would come back. How dumb can I be? So I quickly close the tab and just forget that it never happened by doing something that would make me forget what happened 5 minutes ago, by watching Shameless. I almost made the decision to ask you who shall not be named if it was true. I told myself "NO! THAT'S ENOUGH! YOU ALREADY TROUBLED THEM. NO MORE!". Then, I quickly watched my show to calm me down and alhamdulillah, it did...
You will be missed...
Today,
I decided on changing my way of living. It was when I remembered the horrific incident and started remembering why I decided to take this path of youth. It hit me at the back of my head.. I chose this path to go back to the Almighty. Giving up my life to Him, and only Him. The first thing I did was to cover myself up. I succeed in doing it. I already had that intention to cover myself up for a long time, but my mother told me "Do it when you're truly ready." Therefore, I waited until I was fully ready. When that incident happened, I realized this was a sign from Him. He wanted me to realize what I've been doing wrong. I took the vow to cover myself up from now on. I felt even more fresher ever since I started doing it. I know, I'm still doing things wrongly, sins that could bring me to Hell. I always regret every single sins I did. Praying to Allah that he would forgive me as He is forgiving and loving. Every human being can make mistake and they'll be forgiven if they repent on their sins in hope He will forgive you. I decided to start reading the Holy Quran after every 5 prayers. You will always feel your heart feels fresher after you read the Holy Quran. It truly is...
I won't be sad over something so little, "the one" who I always hoped for all my life, crying over all these boys, trying to fit it in the society. No more! I had enough! I'm going to start focusing on my education and future. I am a grown woman now, I should start thinking about tomorrow and future. When He shows you the right one, only then you can work hard on that.
Thinking of ways to handle your life properly with a smile on your face.
Quote:
“Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.” ― Dr. Seuss
Yours truly,
F.
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