Pretty Much A Player.

Or pretty much just sucker for cute boys who pretty much treats me like a princess.

All my life, there will be some random guy I would fall for... can pretty much say every month. I may sound desperate but nope it's not that, it's just me being a fucking hopeless romantic. I fall for sweet, nice guy easily and it's easy for me to forget about that guy if I stop seeing him for a while. Unfortunately, if I ever meet that guy again, that feeling will sort of comeback but it's definitely not love but there exceptions where I really don't have feelings for that guy again after meeting him. I always wonder why... is it because I'm weak... is it because I'm desperate for love? I don't know.. I still can't find the answer.

I'm pretty much the type of girl who wouldn't mind making the first move, well not all was successful. There's a few rare ones. It's very rare for me to get a guy who would come to me first. That guy who shall not be named managed to come to me first before I made the first move until I ruined the relationship. I never had a real real first love yet. Every relationship was just a "puppy" love.  Maybe my last relationship was something I would call "first love"... sort of. I'm 19 this year, all my aunts and uncles asked me to find a guy before it's too late. It's not that easy.... my mum wants me to be with an older man.... that's impossible if I'm friends with guys who is same age or younger than me.

I've actually come to the decision which I don't want to really focus on this anymore when degree starts? I want to leave to it Allah. Your "the one" will come when Allah says he's "the one".

Amin.

Yours truly,
F.